#i also binged like all their videos earlier on tt and yt and forgot to eat dinner 💀

[jamiemaybeme]

i've been listening to we don't speak anymore (it's a spotify link, sorry non-spotify users) by @bearsintreesofficial since midnight (nearly an hour), and it's making me feel feelings.

i'm 16, and from the uk, so after june i'll have finished my current education (gcses). in england, people choose where to go for sixth form or college when they're 16-18. most of my friends are staying at the same school we're all currently at. i'm not.

i'm scared to lose them, in all honesty. i love them so much. i know friendships develop and change over time, and there's some people i won't bother to stay in touch with. but there's three people i don't think i could deal with not having as my friends.

yes, i'll make new friends at college. yes, i won't have exams or (hopefully) get bullied. but i am going to miss them with every fibre of my being. there's going to be a heavy feeling when i don't see them everyday. and i don't know how i'm supposed to cope with that.

i've known these people a while, some of them nearly half a decade (5 years) and they mean the world to me. they are the people who keep me safe. they keep me alive.

idk it's late i'm rambling a bit. i'm not sure what i'm going to do without my best friends there. i'm scared. anyway go stream wdsa by BiT!!

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